Here’s A Thought…

What others are doing around you seems very important when you have not found your own steadiness. You want to say to them, “Don’t rock my boat! If you rock my boat, I can’t be steady.” But the truth of it is, you’re the only boat-rocker in your world. Only you can rock your boat.

This quote comes from Abraham-Hicks Publications. It is dated February 1, 2014.

My own sweet Soul often reminds me “You are doing this to yourself, Catherine Ann. This is not coming from outside you. You are doing this to yourself by the way you are responding to these circumstances.”

Enough said? Just think about it ūüíęūüíĖ

A Disturbance

As I begin this new day I cannot help but realize how out of sync I felt with myself yesterday. I began the day tired rather than refreshed and still had quite a good morning. By mid-day, however, I was edgy and easily annoyed. When the sun finally set, I counted the last few hours until I could go to bed!

This morning I am reminded of that phrase from the first Star Wars movie:  I sense a disturbance in the Force.

Yep, there is a disturbance in the force field of my life, several big ones in fact. My only sibling, my older brother, died unexpectedly recently. Though unexpected, it really wasn’t sudden and he suffered terribly in the process. Since I was born into his world, I have never known the world apart from his presence. And his presence was powerful; his energy easily absorbed the room and everyone in it. I knew energy would shift and I would be making adjustments on every level of my being. I had no idea and still am not fully tuned into what that feels like.

I returned from family services to learn the neighbors are doing a major expansion on their home and the deconstruction started a few days ago. The energy of my home and daily life has changed and will continue to mutate for months to come.

Yesterday, I not only sensed a disturbance in the force, I must have been caught in the whirlpool it created! Knowledge/Awareness is Power so today I hope to ride the waves of transition more competently. As I typed that sentence I had a visual image of my son surfing and then seeing the absolute joy on his face as he emerged from the water carrying his board.

I wonder if the waves of change in my life could be that much fun? Time will tell.

Namaste, dear hearts. Be blessed today. And be a blessing as well.

It’s OK

It’s OK to be OK, even when life is a challenge, even when life hurts…

 

People have a hard time letting go of their suffering. Out of a fear of the unknown, they prefer suffering that is familiar.              (Thick Nhat Hanh)

An Intention

Trusted teachers have both taught and reminded me over the years to set an intention at the beginning of each day.  Intention is a powerful energy that guides  our thoughts and actions throughout the day, reminding us of the truth of who we are. Below are a few examples of intentions I have found to be supportive of my journey.

 

 I live from the Peace of my Soul.

I Am All That I Am

I manifest the love And compassion of the Divine.

I am Peace Itself.

I Am Love Itself.

I am One with All That Is.

I like to write my intention for the day on a small whiteboard in my kitchen. Seeing it helps me to live in the moment and to be aware of my thoughts and my behavior. Few days pass that fail to bring me opportunities to live my intention fully. Sometimes the circumstance affirms the truth of my intention; other times my intention guides me into higher awareness of my own patterns. This awareness elicits either gratitude or the desire to shift what I am thinking or doing.

May your intentions be clear, true, and powerful. Namaste. Peace dear hearts.

Your Soul’s Voice

From David Simon, Chopra Center:

¬†When we spend time in silence, we can hear the voice of our soul whispering it’s secret message and encouraging us to make choices that bring us more happiness, health, love, meaning, and peace.

Use Anger Well

From The Twisted Root by Anne Perry, a murder mystery set in Victorian England:

Anger at injustice has righted more wrongs than most other things, and it is one of the great creative forces in a civilized society. But in order not to replace one enemy with another, albeit innocently intended, you must use your intelligence. (Advice given by the character, Henry Rathbone, to his son, Oliver, who is preparing for an almost hopeless court case with a high moral issue at stake. Page 245)

In my words:

Use your anger to motivate moral action. Relegate emotion to its proper place and purpose; use intelligence to take the highest road possible in attaining your goals.

This passage struck me deeply this morning because I considered participating in a survey yesterday that came to my attention via Facebook. The writer encouraging people to voice their opinion provided red state zip codes for Californians to use because their responses would not be values otherwise. When I read that part, I exited FB and went for a walk. Isn’t that fraud? Is that who I am? Is that what will allow my voice to be heard? I refuse to believe that or participate in it. I cannot make everyone who questions or disagrees with what I believe and want my enemy.

Intelligence won out, thank goodness. I am grateful for those who have consistently taught me to seek truth in all things.

May each of you do the same.

Underneath Anger

One of the things I find underneath anger is fear. Being afraid is one of the most uncomfortable experiences I have had. When I am ignoring or unconscious of my fear, it often manifests s anger. When I step back and examine the anger, I find that it is often with myself. I have created a situation, or stayed in one for too long, that is resulting in someone coming at me in a hostile manner, whether verbal or physical. Even if I am angry about something beyond my personal life, I realize it comes down to something very similar. I am not powerful enough to prevent or change something that is happening. I am not in control; I do not have enough influence. I’m scared.

I do not like being scared so I get angry with myself for not being powerful enough.

At some point, once I have owned my powerlessness, I come to the doorway of surrender. I lean into my spiritual practice and immerse myself in Divine Love. As fear lessens so does anger. Now, I can be more honest. What can I do? Can I love myself enough to leave a relationship, job, or situation that is not healthy for me? Can I become more involved in my community and world, remembering that even small efforts can build into change? Can I spend quality time with people I admire and learn from them? Taking action in even small ways lessens my fear and builds my confidence in myself, in the Divine flow of life.

I can use the anger that was covering my fear to motivate me into different thinking, into positive action. Fear and anger are powerful energies and those energies can be channeled into the courage and strength I need to be a more effective human being. Yes!

I Can Fly

It all began about a year and a half ago when my granddaughter was about 18 months old. She would launch herself into the air and, when she landed, hurt herself. Alone with her one day, I caught her before she could do that and asked her if she thought she could fly. ¬†She smiled broadly and looked into my eyes and said, “Gama! I can¬†fly!” ¬†I pulled her gently onto my lap facing me and looked into her eyes. I told her that, when I was a very little girl, I also thought I could fly. ¬†Then I explained to her that, when we come into these physical bodies, our ability to fly is limited. I also told her that there are master teachers who might be able to train her to fly but they were not easy to find in this world. Then I gently said, “Remember? Every time you try to fly, you hurt yourself, don’t you?” She nodded then leaned into my chest. I pulled her gently to myself and whispered in her ear, “For now, sweetheart, please stop trying to fly. I don’t want you to hurt yourself anymore.” ¬†She didn’t say anything; she just snuggled more closely to me and we sat for a few moments. She has not tried to fly since.

She is almost 3 now and beginning to experience intense emotions like frustration and anger. Her strong, loving parents are working with her with deep compassion to teach her how to process these strong emotions and still be true to the sweet,  tender soul that she is. In walking meditation last week I remembered a song that I loved and that touched my heart and mind in a very powerful way during a difficult time of my life. I decided I would share it with her on our next alone time together and begin to teach her  that one of the ways we can fly free is in our meditation times.  When I meditate, I fly free of ego, desire, and resistance to life in this world as it is in the moment.

The next day she came over for time with me. I told her that we could use our imagination while we’re being very quiet and fly! We sat on my bed with our legs extended and her sitting between mine, our hearts facing outward. I took her hands and arms into my hands and began to softly sing the parts of the song that I could remember. I invited her to imagine that we were flying through the sky like birds. Then she wanted to get down and sing the song some more while we held our arms out and softly swayed around the room pretending we could fly. The game extended into having stuffed animals fly with us and she laughed and twirled and felt the freedom I wanted her to feel.

Yesterday when she came over I realized I could download the song and she could hear the whole thing with me. The song is “I believe I Can Fly,” recorded by R. Kelly. Oh, we had a glorious time!

Later, as I looked back over the morning with her and remember the joy of that time, I realized how powerful that song is and felt deeply grateful that I had downloaded it. This morning, aware of the inauguration and the conflicting emotions among my brothers and sisters in this country, I decided I would offer those I have contact with a suggestion:

Please go to iTunes and down download (less than $2) R. Kelly’s recording of “I Believe I Can Fly.” ¬†Listen to it today…maybe more than once…and keep it handy to listen to often.

For those feeling anxious and worried, may this soothe your mind and heart and bring up the lightness of the love and peace of your Soul. May you understand that today does not change the Truth of Who You Are.

For those of you feeling elated and sure you have won, may this inspire you to come from a place of compassion and to seek common ground with those who see things differently than you do.

May we all remember that we are Divinely Loved and that true unity and wholeness requires diversity along with compassion and respect for one another.